WEEK-IN #32

There had been a long gap. I did break the WEEK-IN project. Yet, it was huge learning in these couple of months.

Change

We are living beings who thrive on this planet. Living beings evolved for billions of years and will keep evolving for another billion. But, this is not as if we change every 100 years. We change every day. We adapt to what's happening, to sustain an unexpected tomorrow. That is what happened to me in these previous couple of months. A drastic change that my brain couldn't handle.

Is change necessary? Absolutely. But, how come we don't accept it. Cause we are scared of a future being created by a new self. So we hold onto our existing thought process and to our old beliefs. Yet! This world is always moving forward where you are holding yourself back to an unchanged self. That's scarier than jumping onto a new side.

I held onto my old self for so long that once I go to know that I'll have to change to adapt, my brain couldn't process stuff. Anxiety, Depression, Sleeplessness, Rage, Fear, Panic. Everything kicked in as I couldn't imagine myself molding into a different person. So, all those problems kept growing, until one of my friends broke everything. That friend explained each and every point from the very core, where every single knot released slowly. This change is needed and going back to my previous self is not going to achieve anything.

It was hard. I broke down to my subconscious thoughts where I couldn't take even the basic decisions. I was desperate on holding to what I was. Now, I have tweaked it a little to move on. I might not be what I was a year ago, but my core values stayed strong, and here I am writing another blog after a refresh. You too should think of it as growing a new plant rather than looking at it as a falling seed.