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Blurry Focus

I am trying to work, but everything becomes blurry every couple of minutes. Everytime I stumble upon a problem in my task, I get slightly irritated, look away for a second and focus on what the other person is doing. Every single time I have a block, I look at a new person. If that becomes boring, I look at my phone. That too is boring.  I rotate on my chair just to find something interesting. I see shoes. The whole body is covered by the divider between me and the next person apart from his legs. He is focused, trying to work out a problem. I got to know just by looking at his legs. The way they impatiently tap tap tap. Move it an inch, do it again, cross the legs, do it again. And then stop. Bring back legs to normal and hold, as I hear keyboard cluncks. Guess the problem is solved. Another person is pulling onto the tag on the laptop charger while discussing ideas. Swivel a bit on the chair to string out idea into words. Rearrange how he sat to change to a different idea. And th...

Lure of Unlimited Options

"What do you want to become when you grow up? You can be anything you wish for. You just have to put your heart into it." Sounds familiar!? You can be anything you want. But the lure isn't anything. It's everything. You want to be a doctor? Well, engineering is much peaceful. You want to be a businessman? Having a recurring salary is safer. You want to earn more? Don't be greedy. You want to earn less? Money gives you freedom. You want to earn just enough? How much is enough. What do you want to become? You can be anything. But the world is designed to lure you to be everything. We are being stranded at the crossroads, becoming nothing. We have grown from the days of okay thing, being sold on the dream of anything, lured deep into the maze of everything, but possess the skill to become nothing. At least be something.

Our Talents

We all have talents. For some, it could be cooking, and for others, it could be coding. We all love to do one thing, and we excel at it beyond our comprehension. Now, do we use that talent for our livelihood is another question that I am not trying to ask. But we love to do that thing and also talk about it. For me, it's reading and writing. Have I read all the classics? No. Am I a fast reader? No. Do U write the best in my circle? No. But if I hear a conversation in my vicinity about reading or writing, I chime in without any second thought, not because I'm the best, but because I feel I belong in that space. That expression didn't come overnight. I struggled with an issue that I see everyone struggles with. "Confidence". The first thought the other person gets the moment I say I love reading and writing is that I'm overconfident. Well, at least that's what I thought. If I say I like the art of words, do they think that I'm boasting? Even if I talk ab...

Holding on

 As the weekend rolls off and Monday comes by, immediate attention goes to the next holiday. How many days for another break? What can we do on that holiday? A trip? An outing? Attend an event? More than the day itself, the infinite possibility feels amazing. But the truth is, it wouldn't be that different from this weekend. And off we will be again to another holiday, expecting something exciting to emerge on the horizon. But, aren't we looking at the whole thing as a winding clock? Wind it for two days, try to run it for five days, wind it back for the next two days. Every single holiday we try to wind it faster, tighter but end up in the same cycle. Don't get me wrong, cycles are necessary. I believe cycles are predictable and hence give us a chance to bring unpredictability at planned times rather than trying to go for a swim on a random Tuesday. But I've been thinking these 5 + 2 cycles are exhausting. Longer. How to bring it down? Can we make it 3 + 1/2? That'...

Art

I am a science student. I've chosen to be one because I love logic. I love it when things go by as written. Art doesn't. While science is subjective, art is objective. Every single art has lovers and haters. There is no single source of truth for art. Yet, we crave more art than science. Why? I've heard somewhere that we start understanding art once something extraordinary happens. It could be something good or something bad, but it has to break our scales of understanding. Then we look at art with awe. When we were kids, we had an infinite scale cause we felt everything was possible. From me becoming jobless to me becoming a superstar. The scale has no ends. Hence we feel everything's logical. We didn't experience art to its endless bounds because we were bound by logic. Sure, when we see something beautiful, we experience happiness. But as much when you are self-reliant, having not enough friends, no good food, too many hours of work and you get a small flower fly...

2024 - Year of Gratitude

I don't even remember how the year started. But there was one change in my this year. A year of thank you. 2024 is the year when I broke my barrier of introvert. Well not the whole wall, but at least a bit. I broke it in a way to express gratitude to all the people I owe it to. I've started the blog to express my learning through people, actions, or experiences. People are the ones who made the most impact, and it felt that I was learning a lot from everyone but wasn't giving back anything. Then I started telling thankyous. Not a single word message in WhatsApp, but sitting with them one by one and expressing my gratitude towards the learnings from them, how that learning affected me, and discussing in detail about that learning. Every single one of them smiled heartfully the moment I expressed my gratitude and it made me even experience in later days how much of a difference that made. All of those meetings made me realize, that none of us are evil. We become evil just whe...

The Dumb's Truth

We are smart. We all are. And everyone around us are dumb. That's the fact because you are the only person who understands yourself. We all are unique in this world. But there comes a day where due to some reason you become dumb. You know you are dumb that day either through the abnormal thoughts you are getting or through the dumb decisions you are taking that day. You know you are in your worst shape. Then comes a smart guy, from outside. We all perceive at least one person in our life as dumb. Don't tell me you don't. We all have one guy whose decisions we don't care to listen, whose thoughts we don't care to consider. Yet you are connected to that guy because that's how world works. It is maybe our inner person telling not to disconnect just so you feel smarter. But on your dumb day, that guy becomes smarter only for a split second to shock you. You could be in a scenario to take take a decision and you come up with a bad solution. You know it's bad but ...